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| Today was quite a frustrating day.... I am getting more and more impatient. I don't like to be told what to do... I like to boss around!! hahaha... hhmm.. wait til I own my own business man.... and BOSS people around! Wahahahha.. YEAYYY!!!
WooOo.... William knows how to cook alot of dishes.... hohoho.. more than 30 dishes we counted yesterday !!~ WaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaOooww...heheh... looking forward to have today's VSOP beef.. hahah... I am so.... "wai sek"... hahaha...
My mind is all job applications and FOOD...no mood to study at all!!~
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| It feels like I am carrying 100000000000000000 kgs burden on my shoulders. I tried to massage, hit... whatever to make it less stiff, but it doesn't work at all.
I don't want to tell anyone in detail. Because, if I did, they will say that I deserve it, or maybe ..."it is what you should have expected.... cause you chose this".... (say "I deserve it" in a better way).
Damn it.... I hate this........ Why can't something good happen to me? I've already made my efforts. What else should I do? I feel very stressed. I don't want to tell anyone. I know that they will think that they are more stressed than me, and will ask me to shut up.
Sometimes I love who I am because I am different from the others. Sometimes, I also asked "Why do I wanna be different? Is different good?". I dont know.
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| I just submitted all the applications. Tiring!!~.... Even though no mood, still have to do. My bullshit skills was boosted up to maximum level. Hope I can really get a good job.
I love my family. I love my friends. But I am not sad staying here. It's a big challenge to me. Though sometimes I might still 'fat tin', I realised that I've been really strong overall. My aim this year, is different from last year. I want to do something for myself. I want to achieve something for myself.
I've started to be familliar with the Aussie lifestyle. I could talk more rubbish with my colleages. Well, it's not that bad after all. It's all about your "capacity to adapt" or "willingness to adapt". Don't keep looking back. Look forward!!~ Make tomorrow a better day! | | |
| Now I realised why people say there are alot of things you can't do ... or you won't do when you get old.
I try to ask myself..... are you afraid? No I am not. But as ppl grow older, they tend to look for security. Or they tend to be grateful of what they have now. They won't try things such as the roller coaster. They prefer to sit down and watch the dolphins.
Am I that old, or am I still young? Well, I don't know.
I don't fear change. But I don't like it either. | | |
| It has been a few days since I last met my ji muiz... hehe... Miss them
very much!! All the "LDPs".Our friendship is forever so beautiful and
CRAZY.
We really did what we wanted to do. To gamble whole night and eat DIM
SUM the next day. But we still haven't "sing K" and go to Genting
Highlands.
Hhmm... I think Genting Highlands is not possible but "sing K" maybe
yes. My jimuiz.... we can hang out whole night and talk rubbish whole
night... Nothing much changed between us. It's just that more and more ji
muiz become very "LAN DOU"... sei LAN DOU PORs!!
I had lots of fun with my ji muiz, spent some precious time with my
younger sister, no arguments with my elder sister, and showed my
parents my bf. Chinese New Year is forever the best days of the year
for me.
I feel so "cool".... I'll be leaving next friday but I don't feel sad
because "Unhappy things dont have to be repeated, Happy things too,
dont have to be repeated".
I think this 3 weeks holiday is one of the best holidays I've ever had.
It's not too long for me to have time to think rubbish and not too
short for me to spend time with my love ones.
New life ahead...... or probably No life ahead? I don't know.
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